Secret Love: Scene 9

Because of the practice for the upcoming school festival, Hana skipped her part time job for awhile. She still keep thinking if she will quit in her part time job, as Nasaki said to him.

Today was the start of the school festival. They were busy preparing for the first day of the school festival. Nasaki still have his eyes to Hana even he is busy preparing. Hana is part of music club and they're practicing for the upcoming live in the last hour of the event, where they have a guest.

"Nikimura, have you already remember your part?" the club president asked.
"Yes"
"Then good to hear that. The first day will be held in the gymnasium at 5:00 pm. So you guys might not be late." the club president announced.

Hana is kinda nervous for their live because they will have a guest this year to watch their performance.

"... You can go roaming around now guys if you already well known about your part." the president added.

Hana left and look for Saiyuri. She can't find Saiyuri so she send her a mail. Shewaited for Saiyuri's response. Five minutes past, she received a response from Saiyuri that she is busy right now. She will accompanying Hana once she is done.

"So, Sai is busy today..? Then should I go alone today..?" Hana sigh and start walking.

She keep roaming around in the hallway and looking for a good booth to visit. When Nasaki saw her. He followed and pat Hana is the shoulder. Hana was surprised and she look back and saw Nasaki.

"N-Nasaki-kun..?"
"Yo! Are you alone?"
"... Eh? Ah, Sai is busy today, so.."
"Then, shall I accompany you?" Nasaki look at her.

Hana become speechless and agree. They start visiting some booths and enjoy the festival.
Nasaki saw the horror booth and look at Hana. He grin and look at Hana.

"Will 'ya go there?" Nasaki pointed out the horror booth.

Hana look at and saw it was horror booth. She refused and said she is scared. But Nasaki won't listened to her. He grab Hana.

"Just for today. I want to take a look inside too." Nasaki spoke while pulling Hana.

Hana keep struggling that she don't want and she is scared. When they reached the booth, Hana just look and keep saying that she don't want to go inside. But Nasaki seems don't hear anything. They continue enter inside. Hana holding Nasaki's clothes.

"Let's go back. I am scared." Hana keep holding Nasaki's clothes.
"Don't worry, they're not real ghost or something so nothing to scared about."
"B-But- Kyaaaaa!"

When suddenly beside of Hana. She hug Nasaki tightly. Nasaki suddenly surprised and just grin.

"Are you ok?" Nasaki asked Hana.
"N-No... I want to go outside.."
"Want to go first?"
"Eh? W-Why me?"
"So we can go out soon, just keep walking. Don't look."

They keep walking. When another scary thing appeared in front of them. Hana suddenly scream and because of being scared she suddenly pushed Nasaki and they fell in the floor. Nasaki bump his head in the floor and Hana was in the top and shocked.

"I-I'm sorry. Are you ok, Nasaki-kun?" she asked in worried tone.
"I'm fine."

Because it was dark, they can't clearly see each other. Nasaki feels it was too heavy. He noticed blurry that Hana was in top. Hana didn't noticed it.

"... Hana?"
"Y-Yes?"

Hana feel someone's breathing in front of her. She was shocked when she noticed it was Nasaki. She suddenly stood up but Nasaki grab her.

"W-Wait, Nasaki-kun..!"

Nasaki hug her tight. Hana was blushing and cant stop her heartbeat keep on throbbing.

"N-Nasaki-kun... I can't stand up..."

Nasaki wont speak a word to Hana. He touched Hana's face. Hana feels the breathing of Nasaki and suddenly she feel Nasaki's heartbeat.

"Hana.. I love you." Nasaki whispered while slowly pulling Hana's face.

Hana was blushing. She cant speak a word. Nasaki suddenly kissed her. Hana was shocked.

"Hana. Go out with me. I'll make you happy." Nasaki whispered in Hana's ear.

Hana was blushing. She suddenly remember the first time Nasaki confessed to him but still she didn't give her answer.

"... I-"

Both of them shocked when someone coming near to them. They stood up and Nasaki hold Hana's hand. Hana noticed it and feel embarrassed.

"Don't loosed my hand."

Hana reply in low tone and they keep walking until they reach the end.

Anata dake Dakishimetai 2

「貴方だけ抱きしめたい」I want to hug only you

Chapter 2

It was two weeks already when the last time I meet Sakurai. Its been a while I saw him. We don't have a contacts nor seeing each other after what happened five years ago.

The sudden meet between us become worst. We just fought and hurt each other. I still remember what face he makes that time.

I went for a vacation in an hot spring with my boyfriend to relax. Even I want to relax I cant forget Sakurai's face that day. I want to apologize to him but I don't know how. I don't have any contacts to him. But it was a coincidence, we saw each other again. I saw Sakurai inside the hot spring. I was shocked. He saw me with my boyfriend Wataru. I thought he will talk to me but he act like he don't know me. He just passed by while bowing his head. It was too hurt. He snob me like a strangers to him. Wataru saw my pale face, he asked me what happened to me. Wataru don't know what Sakurai's face but he only knows him by name.

I know I cant bring back the memories I have before, but honestly I still like Sakurai even I am going out with other guys. All my mind filled with him that I want to forget but I cant. Its was to difficult for me to do that.

That day was move too fast. When the next morning come, I woke up early. Wataru is still sleeping. I went outside to have a fresh air when I suddenly saw Sakurai sitting in a small area while smoking. He was surprised when he saw me and I was the same when I saw him looking at me. I act that I don't know him, I went back and take some walk in other place but he stop me. He grab my right hand.

"... Wait Yukito!"
"W-What?!"

I cant look at his face. I cant stop but to blush. I never thought he will see me looking at him.

"I want to talk to you.." Sakurai slowly whisper his words to me. I look at him and saw his serious face that he want to talk something to me. I don't have choice but to agree with it.

I guess it will be ok since Wataru is still sleeping...

"... But just make it faster. What are we going to talk about then?"

He look at me at first, then he avoided my sight. I don't know what he is thinking. He asked me to changed place where no one can see us. I just followed him. We stop in not crowded place. I asked him again the same question. He look at me straight..

"Last night, is that your boyfriend?" Sakurai asked me without hesitation.
"Y-Yes, why you asked?"

He cant look at me straight. He whisper and I didn't hear what he said. I asked him to repeat what he said. He look at me smiling yet he seems so hurt. He apologized to me.

"Why are you apologizing to me?" I asked him.
"... Nothing.."

I was so curious about it. I saw him clenching his both hands and he wont look at my face. I heard Wataru's voice calling me and I was shocked. Sakurai noticed Wataru so he passed by and whisper to me..

"I'm sorry.."

He apologized again to me. I don't know but I feel my chest is so tight. I don't know why he is apologizing to me. I just look back at him and when I look back I didn't see any trace of Sakurai.

Wataru look at me and asked me who I am talking with. I thought he will get mad again because of it.

After lunch we checked out in the hot spring. I keep looking in my surroundings and I keep looking for Sakurai, but I cant find him.

I guess he left already..

"What's wrong?" Wataru asked me.
"Nothing.."

We left that hot spring without knowing what was Sakurai really wanted to say to me. He just keep apologizing to me and until now I am curious about it.

It was four days past after that second meeting. I am now assigned in a new project at my work, that will took a short time and I need to cooperate with the other company that has a connection to us. I am starting my new project today. I went early in my work. My boss introduced me with the other workers that I am going to work with for a short time.

"Ah.. Isaki-kun this guy will be the one who is in charge in the new project. He is Kurosawa Yukito."

I was shocked, we're both shocked. I was suddenly become speechless when I saw Sakurai's face. My boss saw me and asked me what happened to me that I am look pale.

"N-Nothing.. I am fine.." I replied in a low voice while I am sweating.

Sakurai act again that we don't know each other. He introduced himself to me and reach his hand to me.

"I am looking forward to your cooperation." he smiled at me while shaking my hand.
"Same here..."

My hand are shaking, I don't know if he notice it or not but I am nervous. I cant look to him properly. I don't know what will happen to me in this short time in this company..

Anata dake Dakishimetai 1

「貴方だけ抱きしめたい」I want to hug only you

Chapter 1

It was too difficult to live in a different world. No one who can understand how you feel. Sometimes no one can accept you.

It was five years ago, I was a college student. I confessed to my one sided love, it was my best friend, but I was rejected. I know that it will be like that. He rejected me and shocked.

"... W-What are you a gay?! It gross!"

I know it will feel him gross if the one who confessed to him is a guy. I regret everything. Because of that I lost him. I treasured him because I love him, but if I didn't confessed to him maybe until now I am still his best friend.

Being a gay is difficult, looking for someone who will accept you. I dated some straight guy but the relation wont last long. We ended up breaking up and I ended up being hurt. It was months ago, I am having a relationship to another guy named Wataru. He is the guy who has a long relationship I have. I ended up being beaten but I still stay by his side. I love him. I cant leave him for some reason.

I want him to cool off his head and I go somewhere else and back in the morning where he leaves for work already.

"... Yukito?" Someone called my name and the voice is familiar to me. When I look at him, it was my best friend Sakurai. I was shocked. I don't know what should I say first.

"What happened to your face?"
"... This.."

I don't want him to see my face like this. He touched my face gently, I was shocked.

"D-Don't touch my face!" I didn't noticed I smack his hand. I saw his face, he is really shocked. He smiled at me but those smile is so lonely and its hurts to see him like that.

"I'm sorry. I know you are still angry at me.."
"... I'm not..

He apologized to me, I apologized too. He didn't asked again what happened to me. I can feel he knew it already. I cant look to him in the eyes. He asked me if I have a time to talk to him. I accepted his offer but I asked him not outside. He smiled at me and asked if its ok if we talk in his apartment. I agreed.

We reached his apartment. I used to be in his apartment before. Its still the same, nothing is changed. He offered me a coffee. It was too silent and all I can hear is the noise of the clock.

"What do you want to talk?" I look at him straight. He hold his coffee and sip a little bit of it. He look at me straight.

"Those bruises.. You got that from your boyfriend, right?"

I was shocked. I knew it that he will asked about it. I just make an excuses. I am trembling and I tell him I just got a fight with someone. But he can tell that I am lying.

"You don't have to lie. I can see it to you that you are lying."

I want to cry. He saw the uglies attitude I have. I noded my head. He still know about me. I am the type of a guy who is trembling when I am lying. I thought he forgot all about me after what happened five years ago.

He look at me in a worried face. He asked me once again if I love my boyfriend. I don't have an idea why he asked it but I replied to him 'Yes' he asked me if my boyfriend love me. I suddenly stop.

"Why do you asked?" I give back him the question.
"If he loves you he wont hurt you.."

I know it even you don't say it. It was my fault that's why Wataru hurt me like this. Sakurai sip the last bit of his coffee.

"... I guess it should be good for you if you broke up with him."

I was shocked when Sakurai said that to me.

"How can you say that?" I just clenched my hands and cant look at his face.
"Because I am worried."

Worried..?

I don't know what face he is making right now. I keep my head bow and keep clenching my hands.

"... I cant break up with him."

He looked at me and asked me why in a high tone. I was surprised because of his voice suddenly changed. I tell him the truth that I love my boyfriend right now. Without noticing I am arguing with Sakurai. I don't know why he is persisting about between my boyfriend.

"You... You don't know how I feel. I know its hurt for me but.. I love Wataru, he is the only guy who accepted being me.."

I saw his face, he does that face expression again like five years ago and I suddenly become calm.

Don't look at me with a face like that...

I feel in regret again when I saw his face like that and remember what happened before.

"Aren't you the one who dumped me? So how can you still say you're worried about me?"

No its not that I want to tell to him..

Why? Why become like this.. I want to forget about him. Why you suddenly show up in front of me.. Why? I ended up being hurt because of you.

Sakurai just become speechless. He look at me smiling but he seems hurt. I was shocked when I saw his face. My chest hurt. I stand up and left him. He didn't said anything until I left. I hurt him..