Kizu na..

「傷な。。」

I, Fujitaka, working a part time job in a small restaurant in night and a college student in the morning. I was in love with my co-worker named Tsuda and he was a guy. But Tsuda don't know at all my feelings and everytime he's with me I can't stop but became nervous.

Everytime I got home from work to my apartment this guy Kao, my classmate in university was always here. We did the first time sleeping together when we're both drunk. But Kao always force me to have sex with him after that.

".... What are you doing again here?"

He just smiled at me while smoking in my room.

Everytime Kao is here in his apartment he wants to have sex with me. He always do a rough sex. I really don't like to sleep again to him after we did it when we are drunk he always force me and I promised to myself that I wont sleep again to Kao because I am really in love to Tsuda but he was forceful to me to do it with him.

Its another night and we have done it again. It was morning when I attend the first period of our class and my hips are really hurts because of last night. I saw Kao talking to his guy friends and I looked at him yet he is ignoring me that nothing happened to us last night. I was really angry when Kao snob me.

The university is done and I went to my part time. I become cheerful as ever because of Tsuda. I am very happy when Tsuda is around. Tsuda who always has a sweet voice to me when he was talking, that really makes me fell in love, has a girlfriend and I don't have an idea at all.

The part time ends for this night and I went back home and when I opened my room I saw Kao again in my room smoking..

"What are doing here again?!"
"You know what I want why I am here."

Kao grin at me. Because of my anger I suddenly shout to him and tell that I wont do it again to him because I don't like it..

"Anyways, we are not lover!! So would you stop-"

Kao makes an angry face and grab my hand and throw me in my bed. I am panting because of the hurt, Kao became forceful again. He did it because of what I said to him..

The thing that I don't like happened again to me tonight. I was crying and fell asleep.

Kao is sitting in the floor and smoke. He looked at me that I don't have an idea because I am sleeping and without noticing it I suddenly said Tsuda's name while I am sleeping and I don't have an idea but Kao makes an angry face while looking at me.

The next day, my university and my part time were both done and I am really tired. I was afraid to go home because I was guessing that Kao is in my apartment. But I don't know a place where I can stay with. When I opened the door Kao stared at me while smoking, I just ignored him. He grab me and he make an angry face and I leaned in the wall.

"Who's that Tsuda?!"
"Huh?"
"Don't reply me that! You mention his name.."
"When I did that?"
"While you are sleeping last night!"

I was speechless. I didn't noticed at all. I called myself an idiot for what I did. Kao makes an angry face and I wont look at his face.

"Maybe you did it with him, huh?!"
"What are you saying-"

He smack me until I fell in my bed.

He grab me and my both hands and grip it. He forced me. My back is bleeding. All I can do is said "Stop" and crying yet he wont listen to me. When I look to him I saw his painful face..

"... Why he was making that face while looking at me?"

I thought it while crying. After that I fell asleep and Kao sit in the floor looking at me and he was crying.

It was morning and I don't have university but I went in my part time job.

"What happened to you?!"

My supervisor was shocked when he saw my bandages in my face. I just make an excuse. I looked around and seems that Tsuda was not around.

"Sir, where's Tsuda?"
"Ah.. He is in day off.. He was on date with his girlfriend."

I was shocked when I heard it. When my supervisor left I was crying alone in the locker room.

When I got back home Kao is not around in my apartment.

"So he didn't came."

I sit and relax in the sofa. My tears suddenly fall. I cried. I can't believe that Tsuda has a girlfriend. My one-sided love where all gone.. I fell asleep and didn't noticed that Kao came late in my apartment. He went in my room and watched me sleeping. He sit in the floor and smoke.

"... I'm sorry for being forceful to you Fujitaka.."

I heard someone is crying and when I open my eyes i saw Kao's back hair. He was talking to me while I am sleeping. I was surprised.

"... I love you Fujitaka, but you don't noticed it at all so I became forceful. I'm really sorry. I really love you!"

I was in shocked when I heard he said that and I sit up from my bed. He was surprised when he saw me awake.

"... Kao.."

He step backward.

"Did I woke you up?"

I just shaked my head. Its unusual for Kao like that. It was my first time I saw him crying and first time he make a step backward from me. I looked at him and he wont look at me in the eyes. I went close to him.

"... Kao.. Is that true.. The things you are saying lately.."

He was blushing while avoiding his sight from me. I smiled at him and hug him.

"Why didn't tell you that to me earlier?"

He was shocked when I hug him tight.

"... I did.. The first time we did it when we're drunk but after doing it while saying those words you fainted. I thought you heard it but you didn't."

I don't remember a thing like that when we first did it. I am speechless.

"Fujitaka... I'm sorry for being forceful. I really love you that I did it because everytime I want to feel you my feelings you just noticed but nothing."

He was crying while looking at me. I kissed Kao. He was surprised because even we have sex we don't kiss. But this time I gave my answer to him..

"I love you too Kao.."

I smiled at him and he was blushing. Because of the happiness he hug me tight and crying.

"... Me too"

It was morning. It was the first time that Kao became gentle to me at bed. I saw his sleeping face while hugging me. I smiled at him and I suddenly remember what happened the first time we did it..

Because of being drunk.. I was about to fainted and suddenly Kao's sweat drip in my face.

"... Fujitaka, I love you.."

I fainted suddenly while he was saying it.

"... So that was happened.."

I look at him and I smiled while hugging him..

I didn't noticed it but Kao already awake and he was blushing...

END

Wasurenai Basho

「忘れない場所」

Its been years when I was dumped by my ex-girlfriend.. I am living alone now. The company I'm working at transfered me in other branch. Its been a week I am living in this new apartment. My apartment is near in a river. And its peaceful, I cant see people around in the afternoon. Maybe there were busy at work...?

I've been working in other branch for 1 week already. Well, today is my off and I need to take a fresh air outside. This is the first time I am walking in this place alone. I'm still not familiar with the places here so I went in the river just to relax.

I saw a guy in the river.. Standing there, and seems he look so down. He is looking at the river with a sad face. I suddenly shocked when this guy is about to jump in the river. I run and grab his hand.

"... What are you doing?!!!" I just shout at him.

I feel his hand is kinda cold. I just thought maybe he was there since last night. He was shocked when he saw me. He pulled out his hand at me. He wont look at my eyes.

"Do you know what are you doing?!" I asked him in a loud voice.

Still he wont look at me. He is holding his hand.

"Its not your business."

I was pissed off when he replied at me like that.

"If you want to kill yourself... Its better to live... I dont know what happened to you, but would you at least take care of yourself?" I smiled at him while saying those words.

He laugh at me.

".. You know, you are a strange guy."
"Huh?"

I dont have a idea what he mean by that. But when I saw his smiling face its makes me feels weird. I smiled back at him.

Afterwards I talked to him. It was a quiet afternoon. We're sitting under the tree and talk something. I saw him that he is enjoying what we are doing. That comes to my mind.

"By the way what's your name?" I asked him with a gentle voice.
"Miyagi.."
"... Hmm, Miyagi.. I'm Shinya."

Miyagi smiled while looking at the sky.. I looked at him and I feel weird again. He saw me looking at him. He smiled at me.

"Y'know Shinya-san.. You're a nice person."
"Eh? Well... I'm not. It was just a normal for me."
"... Please dont be gentle to me.." he whispered.
"... Hmm?"

I actually didn't heard what he said to me but he said that just forget what he said. It was evening already. I asked him if he wants to go eat dinner with me but he refused me.

"Sorry, Shinya-san."
"Hmm? Its fine. I'll asked you next time then."

He make a warm smile at me. I feel weird again, I dont know what is happening to me when I saw him smiling like that.

"Aren't you going home, Miyagi?"
"Nope. I will stay here for a while."
"... Then dont do anything reckless."
"Sure."

He smile again like that. Shit! Those smile again. I cant think but a weird things. He asked me to meet him again tomorrow in this place again. I accept his offer.

It was another day and another work. Filled of works to do. I am keep on looking at the time and seems I am looking forward to meet Miyagi again.

"Ah, Shinya-san, wont you eat dinner with us?"
"I'm sorry. Today I passed. I have an appointment after this."
".. Eh? Dont tell me you find a girlfriend?"
"Huh?! Of course not."
"Haha. We're just joking. Well, see you tomorrow."

I refused there offer just to meet Miyagi. It just I cant wait to see him. I saw him again in the river. It seems same happening yesterday. I saw him looking at the river with that sad looks in his face. I went to him.

"Dont tell me.."
"Ah, Shinya-san!"

He was surprised when he saw me. But afterwards he makes that warm smile again. I cant stop but feels weird when I saw him smiling. I just suddenly hug him. He was surprised at me. But he hug me back. Miyagi's body is feels cold.

I keep on seeing him everyday after work. When I have off I talked to him whole day. I'm happy just talking to him and seeing his smile. He wont come to my apartment so we always eat in that place everyday. I dont asked him twice why he wont come with me to eat somewhere. But still eating just the two of us everyday makes me happy.

Its been 1 month that I know Miyagi. And I feel that I'm inlove with him. But I cant still say it to him. Because I dont want him to gross out just because I confess to him. I want to stay with him.

I promised to see Miyagi in the afternoon. But suddenly my boss asked me for overtime. I finished my work at 10 pm and I'm in a hurry to see him. I thought to myself that Miyagi is still waiting for me there. When I went to the river side. I saw him sitting while looking in the river again. He does that sad face again. I'm always curious why he always makes that smile while looking at the river. He saw me. He smiled but his smile is different from the smile I knew.

"S-Sorry Miyagi I'm late.. I have to take overtime today so.."
"Its ok Shinya-san.."
"Dont tell me you are waiting here since afternoon?"

He didn't make a response. He just removed his sight to me. I went closed to him.

"Miyagi-"
"Shinya-san.. I have something to tell you.."

I kinda shocked when he said that. I hold his cold hands.

"... What is it?"
"... Y'know... Will you please stop coming here everyday?"

I was hurt when he said that to me. I got angry in what he said to me.

"W-What do you mean by that?!"
"... I dont want to see you anymore."
"Huh?! What kind of excuse is that?!"

Without realizing I'm gripping his hand but he seems wont feel anything. He was crying.

"... Please stop coming here anymore. I dont want Shinya-san to be hurt."
"I dont accept that. I am meeting you because of my will. And I dont want that excuse! You know you hurt me just because saying those things to me!"

He just keep on crying. And me, as possible I dont want to cry. But it really hurts me. I dont want to lose him. I just want to stay beside him always. Seeing his smile.. All of him.. I want all of him.

"Please.. Please Miyagi dont say that thing. I dont want to lose you."
"... Me too, but if you keep on coming here it will hurt you more. Thats why... Please stop coming-"
"I wont accept! I wont! Because I love you, Miyagi! Thats why..."

My tears suddenly drip. He smiled at me. That smile is the same smile I like from him.

"Me too Shinya-san, I love you too.. But it wont work anymore."

He keep on crying. I wiped his tears and asked him.

"What do you mean that it wont work anymore..?"

Miyagi hug me tight and explain everything to me.

"Shinya-san I'm already dead. So it wont work. You wont never see me."

I was shocked in what he said to me. I asked him that he was joking but he shaked his head. I am speechless...

He touched my face and feel his cold hands again.

"2 years ago.. I killed myself here.. Because my lover left me.. And my lover is a guy. I love him that much and I cant live without him.. So I killed myself here... I was in regret when I meet you. I fall in love with you the time I saw you, I was really feel regret if I didn't killed myself maybe I can be with you but it seems that I am in my limit.."

I keep on crying and keep saying that he was just joking at me. I cant speak because of the shocked. I just hug him.

"Dont leave me Miyagi.. I love you! So please."
"I love you too Shinya-san. But its my limit already."

He was shocked when I hugged him tight and gripping his clothes. I dont know what face he makes but I just feel his cold tears.

"Thanks for loving me Shinya-san.."

He looked at me and he kissed me in my lips. His lips are cold. His body is cold. His body is about to vanished. I was keep on crying and hold his hands tight.

"... Miyagi.."
"Shinya-san thanks for everything."
"Miyagi.. Dont leave me.. Please!"
"I cant.. I'm sorry."
"... M-Miyagi.."

Miyagi is vanished already. The only words he left that I heard is "I love you." I keep on crying and kneel. I keep on shouting Miyagi's name. My tears wont stop.. Its really hurt. This hurt I feel is different from my ex-girlfriend.

Its been 2 weeks before I kinda recovered and cant forget about Miyagi.. Every time I went home from work, my usual route is to stop in that river. I always keep on throwing flowers in the river and keep on saying "I love you & I missed you so much Miyagi" while I'm crying..

1 year passed.. I'm about to transfer again in the previous branch I am working at. I went in the river in my last day in that place. Today was the day I met him in the river. I bought flowers.

"Miyagi.. Until now I cant forget you. You gave me happiness when I'm with you. Its really difficult if you are not around. Its been one year when the last time I saw you. You know today was the day I met you here. Miyagi... I'm going back again in the previous branch I am working at.. Today will be the last day of my visiting here.. But you know even you are not here with me... I'm still loving you. I keep on loving you. I really love you Miyagi."

I cried while saying those words to him. I threw the flowers in the river. I wiped my tears and said my last words to him.

"I wont forget you Miyagi. I love you!"

I left the river already and suddenly I turned back my sight in the river and I feel like I'm dreaming. I saw Miyagi holding the flowers I threw and waving his hand at me. He still makes that smile he always do. I was shocked when I saw him. I cried again and wiped my tears. After wiping my tears I didn't see his soul again. And I turned around...

"Thank you & I love you.. Miyagi."

I smiled while my tears are dripping from my face and left.

Fuyu no Omoide

「冬の思い出」

It was winter season. I was run away in our home for some reason. I went everywhere.

Too cold. No food. No place to stay with.

It was night when I sit behind the old store. I am freezing because of the cold. People walking stared at me. No one is approaching me. But.. Only one guy who stop in front of me. I look at him and I saw him looking at me.

"You will catch a cold if you stay here.." he said while sharing his umbrella to me.

I am speechless. I bow my head not to see his face but he keep staying in front of me.

"Want to come to my place?"

I suddenly looked to him when I heard he say that. Without thoughts I came along with him. I came to his apartment. He allowed me to used his shower room. After showering, I smell a food. I went in the kitchen and saw him cooking.

"What food are you cooking?" I asked him in a curious way.

Without noticing it. He laugh at me.

"You don't know nabe?"

I just nod my head. And he laugh again at me.

"I see.. But you see.. First time to hear your voice. You didn't speak at all when you came here."

While saying those words he keep on smiling while cooking the food.

We eat our dinner. And I was surprised in his cooking. It was delicious. He asked me if its delicious. I just nod my head. He keep staring at me while I am eating.

I am looking at him while preparing the futon.

"You will sleep in the bed and I will sleep here."
"Is it ok?"
"Yes."

He make a warm smile in his response. I just lay down in his bed and hug the pillow. It was a peaceful sleep for him while me I keep on crying.

It was morning. When I woke up this guy left the apartment. He left a sheet of letter in the table.

"I'll go at work. Eat the breakfast I cooked and just heat your food for your lunch. I'll be back at the evening."

I ate my breakfast. I noticed that I don't know his name and I never tell my name to him too.

When the evening comes. He came back. When he came back the apartment is clean. And he saw me at the kitchen. Never hear his voice when he say "I'm home" that's why I'm surprised when he saw me at the kitchen.

"What are you doing?" he asked in surprised voice.
"... I tried cooking dinner."

He laugh at me. I thought he will get angry at me because the kitchen is messy. I don't know how to cook but I tried to cook for him being kind to me.

"I will wait for your specialty food."

He make a smile and sit in the chair waiting me to serve the food. I kinda shy when I serve the food. It was all toasted.

".. Sorry, I don't know how to cook." I kinda blush.

He ate all the food I cooked.

"Its delicious. Though its toasted."

I just smiled when he said that. And it came to my mind about his name. I asked his name. He smiled at me.

"I thought you never asked my name. Masa.. Is my name. You?"
".. Taki."

He smiled when he heard my name. He never ask me why I am in that place. But he ask me once..

"Taki.. Last night are you crying?"

But I never give him an answer. He didn't repeat his question.

"Never mind. But if you need someone to shoulder on I can help you. You can stay here any time you want."

He left and went in the shower after saying that. I was touched when he said that and suddenly my tears fall down.

I don't have an idea... But he is hiding in the shower room and heard me crying.

Its night already.. I look in his sleeping face until I fall asleep.

Masa open his eyes when I fall asleep already.

Same happening in the other day.. He always leave early in the morning and he is not around in the afternoon. I just spend time with him during evening. I enjoy living with Masa. He teach me how to cook and teach me many things. The winter season ends.

I live in his apartment for months. We go out just the two of us sometimes. I am happy when I'm with him. I don't still know what this feelings I feel for him. But I'm just happy.

One day I went out by myself. I went go in the grocery to buy some ingredients for the dinner. I am waiting for the stop light to cross by in the next road.

Masa in the the other side road.. He about to came to greet me but I don't have an idea that he saw me. This guys is running when he suddenly pushed me. I was shocked and I'm about to fell down and the cars are still moving.. Masa came to grab me and hug me. Instead I'm the one who will be in danger Masa was the one. He saved me.

Masa is in the hospital. I cried a lot because I am worried about him. He was in the emergency room and me all I can do is to wait.

The doctor went out from the emergency room. Masa is safe, all I can do is to wait for him to open his eyes. The doctor allowed me to visit his room. I sit beside him and touched his face while my tears are dripping in his face. That's all I can do..

The other day Masa open his eyes already. Without knowing I cried when I saw him awake already. Masa make a warm smile and wiped my tears.

"Why are you crying?"
"... I am happy because you already awake."

I am blushing while crying. He hug me. The doctor came in the room and asked Masa to talk with him alone. I went out. I don't have idea what are they talking.

Its been a week when Masa came back in his apartment. I took care of him until he get well soon. He always said that my cooking improved that make me smile every time he said that. I got work while I'm taking care of Masa. My loneliness that I feel when Masa got injured because of me were fade.

Its been a months after that incident happened and its already autumn. I just came back from work. Its already late in the evening when I came back home. No one is answering me. All the lights are off. I thought that Masa already sleeping. But when I passed by in the toilet i saw the lights on. I came inside and I thought Masa is taking a shower but all I saw is Masa is lying in the floor full of blood. I was shocked. I tried to wake him up but he won't wake up. I called the ambulance. Masa was in the emergency room. I was waiting again crying.

"Seems this is already happened.." I thought it while crying.

The doctor came out from the emergency room.

"... I'm sorry but he didn't survived."

When the doctor said that my heart skip beating. I was shocked. I cried again and again.

"What do you mean he didn't survived?!"
"... He don't have long life left."
"Are you joking right?!"

The doctor shake his head. I sat in the chair and rubbing my head. The doctor said that I can go visit his room. I went in with the doctor.

"Months ago Masa has a disease. He is vomiting blood that not easily to be cured. He already has his limit of months to live on. He didn't mention it to you so that you won't worried about him. He came always here after work to have a check up. He can still open his eyes but all I can say is he can't survived in that disease."

I cried when I heard all those explanation of the doctor. The doctor left and I sat beside him crying. I hold his hand.

"Why didn't you tell me everything? You will leave me alone now..?"

I keep on crying while talking to him, though I know he wont hear me.

The next day. Masa opened his eyes already but his conditions are not good. When he opened his eyes he hold my hands and I suddenly woke up.

"... Taki."
"Masa..."

I cried while calling his name. He look at me and hold my hand.

"Why are you crying Taki?"
"... Nothing."

I just shake my head while crying. My tears dripping Im his face. I can't blame him already. I just said nonsense word. I can't get angry to him even though he keep it secret from me. He wiped my tears and touched my face. I hold his hand in my face.

"You know Taki. I have something to tell you.."
"What is it?"
"You know when I first met you... I came to love you. The time when I meet you in the raining snow night, I thought that you are lost or something when I saw your face. When I saw your face. I am happy when we live together."

I cried and speechless in what I hear. I am crying yet blushing. I keep holding his hand.

"And you know Taki, I was about to confessed to you but I am scared that you will run away when I confessed to you, so I keep it one-sided love for me. And stay living with you. I'm sorry for keeping secrets from you."
"Nmm, i-its ok. I am not angry at you."
"Really? Thank you Taki for having you. Spending time with me. I am really happy to met you."
"Me too.. Masa.."

Masa's heartbeat is about to lost. I am panicking and calling his names many times. The doctor came. I keep holding his hand.

"... Taki.."
"... What?"
"I love you.."
"... I love you too."

I cried like a kid when he said that to me in a low voice. And his hand fell down already and he is not beating at all. I keep on crying.. Calling his name while hugging him. It was painful for me that Masa leaving me.

It was already December and two months already when Masa passed away. I came to visit his grave in winter season.

"Masa.. I came here to visit you. Today is the day when I met you last year. You know I really missed you. Actually, when you left me I think that its not better to live without you. But I realized that if I do that the things you teach me about living will be on waste. So I decided to be strong. I really missed you Taka."

I cried when saying those words in his grave. It suddenly raining snow. I look up in the sky and keep on crying again.

"... Masa. I love you!"

Saying those words looking at the sky and cried. And I thought that will Masa will hear those words I'm saying...?

END

Ai ga Umareta Hi

「会いが生まれた日」

It was in my high school days when I met my kouhai that I am in love with.

One day, Hideki, the guy I am in love with joined in our school club. I was nervous when I saw him joining in the club. He greet me in a warm smile when he saw me. I cant look in his eyes and greet him back while I am blushing. I thought to myself that my one-sided love for my kouhai will be come true.

It was a party for a new members of the club and we went to a one member house to celebrate it.

Everyone got drunk. Hideki got drunk too. I was the only one left who is not drunk. I carried some drunk members in the other room to have a peaceful sleep. I saw Hideki lying in the floor, I was blushing when I saw him. Without noticing, I carried him in the next empty room.

I lay him down in the futon and he suddenly grab me.

"Sleep with me." he said it while hugging me.

I was blushing when I heard him saying those words. I was in love with him that much that I cant refuse in what he wants. I kissed him. I slept with Hideki.

The morning comes. Some members left. When I woke up Hideki left. I was disappointed. I was hoping that when I woke up I hope I can see him sleeping beside me. I just cried not knowing if its happiness for sleeping with him since for my one-sided love or a painful in my heart.

It was another day to attend school. I saw Hideki in the club. After disappointing myself I still keep on looking at him without noticing me. He saw me looking at him.

"Ah, Ruui-sempai.. Uhm about last night.." rubbing his head.
".... I-Its ok. Since we are both drunk."

I saw Hideki grip his right hand. I have no idea if he is angry or what.

"... Yeah, you're right." Hideki left.

I was speechless for a minutes and realized everything. I followed him but I dont know what I am going to say when I catch up with him.

I followed him in the rooftop. I saw him looking far away. The air blows.

"Hideki.. I.."
"What sempai?"

He wont look at me in the eyes. Instead looking at me all I can see is his back. I dont know what expression he is making right now. My chest hurt that I want to cry.

".... I-I love you Hideki!" I burst out and my tears fall.
"What was that? A joke?"

I was hurt when I heard him saying that.

"... Its disgusting, right?" my tears wont stop.

He turn around and saw me crying.

"Sempai, I love you too."

I was surprised when I heard him. When I look at him I saw his eyes that wants to cry. He make a warm smile while looking at me.

"I was just hurt. I don't sleep to a person that I don't love."

My tears fell. And went to hug him. I cried like a kid. He hug me back. Hideki keep saying that he loves me. I was happy that moment he confessed and I confessed my feelings to him. I didn't ask Hideki when he start loving me but I just keep on hugging him.

Hideki has a reason too why he loves me the way I do. The days move fast. We are about to graduate and I got a news about my parents.

I am really shocked and don't know what to do after hearing that news. I can't complain everything. I came to find Hideki and plan to talk to him about it as soon as possible.

The place, we both confess our feelings, where I saw Hideki is in the rooftop. I never thought he was waiting for me. I saw his happy smile when he saw me.

"Ruui-sempai." he mention my name in a warm smile.
"... Hideki."

He was clueless. I just grip my both hand and I don't know how to start explain everything to Hideki.

"... Actually... I have something to tell you."
"What is it, sempai?" He keep on smiling at me.
"... I will go study abroad."

Gripping my hand and do my best not to cry. I can't look in his eyes.

"What was that?" he whisper.

I look at him and saw his angry face. And he keep on asking me that same question he asked.

".. Its about my parents. They want me to study abroad. And look the course I want to get is there too so.." I smile like an idiot.

Hideki turn around and look far away and I don't know what he is thinking right now and what expression he is making right now.

"... Is that so? That would be good. Taking your course you like.. Go ahead.."

My chest hurts when he said that to me. I was hoping to stop me but I disappointed to him. I thank him and leave. I don't know what face he is making that time when I turn around. But me, I cant stop my tears flowing in my eyes.

Its been a years. I am graduated in my university already. I received an invitation from my previous high school teacher that we will have a reunion party. When I read it, I suddenly remember Hideki. I thought that if I will go there I can see him.

I don't have any reason to came back in my hometown, its just an invitation that I received from the school and of course its because of Hideki. I decided to go back in states soon once the party is done.

I attend the reunion party in a hotel. Everyone from the club I am before saw me. Hideki is with a girl that I don't know and when I look at him he saw me yet he snob me. My chest hurt. I thought that he really don't care at me at all since before. Someone called me from the previous club members. Hideki took a glimpse at me and when I'm about to look at him he removed his sight from me. He still talking to the girl he is with.

"Ruui, isn't you and Hideki closed before?" someone from the club member before asked me.
"... Not really, I guess.." I whisper.

They look at me and my sempai pat me.

"Don't make a sad face like that. Just enjoy the party."

I just make a fake smile so that they wont become curious about me.

I went to the toilet. I saw Hideki was in front of the mirror, washing his face. I act like I don't know him.

".... You changed a lot." Hideki whisper.

I suddenly stop.

"I guess I am.. Please excuse me."

I left him. I didn't noticed that my tears fall down. When Hideki followed me he grab my hand and saw me crying.

"... Ruui-sempai..."

I moved backward when I heard he mention my name. I don't know what to say but run away in front of him. He followed me calling my name many times until he catch up with me and grab my right hand. Hideki hug me tight. I was speechless when he hug me but my tears wont stop.

"... Please.. Don't leave me the way you did back then."

I feel a warm tears from my neck. Hideki is crying while hugging me tight. I hold his hands.

"... Please, Ruui-sempai don't leave me."
"... Why didn't you stop me back then?"
"Because I cant stop you because you can do the things you want to do while me I still don't have dream future back then. I'm still immature that time and don't have guts to stop you.. I regret it."

I just keep on crying while hearing all those explanation from him. I face hima nd hold his face and kissed him.

"I'm sorry.. Hideki."

I apologized to him while resting my head in his chest. He hug me again.

"I love you, Ruui-san"

Hearing calling my name without sempai really makes me happy. My tears keep on falling because of the happiness I feel.

"I love you too, Hideki."

END