Jiyuu ga aru Basho

Atatakai Egao: Side story of Nishiyuki Itsuki

「自由がある場所。。」A place where freedom is..

"Hey did you hear?"
"What?"
"There's a rumor that guy slept with one of our sempai.."
"Eh? For real?"
"Yeah and what its a guy.. Someone saw them.."

Its not that I like it. I've been forced to do those thing just for their own greed. It was always like this every time I go to school. Its like I lost everything..

I want to be free from this cage where I've been locked. But how? I've been looking for answer but I cant find. No one can set me free from this place, from this sorrow.

The rumor was been spread in all the campus for not knowing the truth. My sempai's forced me to have sex with them in the rooftop of the school. Its was like a rape. But I have no choice, I dont have energy to fight back. They left me torn in that place.

When they feel to do it, they always look for me. It happened many times. They do as they wish. I want to resist but all I can do is cry.

Someone saw the scene, I thought he will help me but not. The rumors been spread out all inside the campus. I was so pathetic that I dont know what I am going to do when that rumors were been spread out. They look at me that I am dirty man, but its not. I once tried to explain everything about what happened to my home teacher and subject teachers but they dont believe me. No one believes in me.

I lost. I am too weak. It sucks to be stuck in a cage like this that nowhere to find where is the exit. I am hopeless.

But, it was month ago.

"I told you! I dont want to live with a man like you!"
"Just shut up! Even I.. You also have an affairs, aren't you?!"
"... What did you say?!"
"I saw you! Its better if we got divorced!"

My life become really worst. My parents were got divorced. Both of them have affairs and my life really is ruined. I cried when I heard them fighting.

The next day, mom talks to me. She said I'm gonna be transferred in a province. I am gonna live with my older brother who already married.

"I talked to your brother and he accepted it. I will leave this house as soon as possible.. So.."

I just bow my head and cant look at my mom's face. I dont know what face she is making. I have thoughts that she will live at her new boyfriend's house while my dad will start living with her new girlfriend when my mom starts to leave.

Its better too if I leave this place.. I might be set free..

Just what I thought but inside I am lonely. Lonely for being all alone by myself. I always thought that if I lived with my brother I might be out of place since he got his own life already.

But I was mistaken. I start living with my brother in a province and I saw him so very happy. Me and my brother close to each other when he is still not married. I saw him very nice to his wife and kids.

Because of that, my tears went fall and they were shocked. It was too pain for me to be like this. Seeing a happy family like this is makes me so happy.

"Nii-san.. Please treat your family gently.." I said it while I am sobbing. My brother smiled at me and they both hug me.

My tears wont stop. I feel empty before but now my life is slowly changing.

I start to go to school where I've been transfered. It was my first time to be in a place like this. A beautiful places where you cannot find in a city. A fresh air where I can relax. It was like a freedom.

I want to go in every places here where I can enjoy and find happiness..

I am so nervous for being transfered here in my new school. Always thinking if I can find a friend.

"Are you ready? Just introduce yourself in normal way. No need to be nervous."

Thats my new home teacher said but I am feel nervous. I act in normal way as I could, I introduced myself in composed manner. My classmates were looking at me, whispering to each other. I thought I make a mistake. They're looking at me blushing.

"Hey.. Is that really a boy? He looks like a girl.."
"Yeah. He is super cute."

I heard their whispering. I know this will be happened. I ignore everything I heard.

When I sit in a vacant chair, a guy looking at me. He seems no interest at me at all. I sit beside him.

"Please to meet you." I smiled at him and I sit. When I look back at him he is blushing.

I asked him to shared with me his notes and when I glance at him, he is blushing. I feel like something's wrong about me.

Days passed and I become so closed to this guy who I'm sitting beside with, named Yoshimura. I started hanging around him and I feel happy when I am with him. He guides me in every places I want to go. It was like I am a bird who just been set free from a cage and start to fly far away from that place.

Many happens but until I realized I am in love with him and keep it secret from him. But I never expected he feels the same way.

As the moments passed by without noticing I am loving this place. Its good that I went to a place like this and found the true freedom I am looking for. I hope it will become like this forever, to start forgetting about my past and be strong from now on.

END.