Ai ga Umareta Hi

「会いが生まれた日」

It was in my high school days when I met my kouhai that I am in love with.

One day, Hideki, the guy I am in love with joined in our school club. I was nervous when I saw him joining in the club. He greet me in a warm smile when he saw me. I cant look in his eyes and greet him back while I am blushing. I thought to myself that my one-sided love for my kouhai will be come true.

It was a party for a new members of the club and we went to a one member house to celebrate it.

Everyone got drunk. Hideki got drunk too. I was the only one left who is not drunk. I carried some drunk members in the other room to have a peaceful sleep. I saw Hideki lying in the floor, I was blushing when I saw him. Without noticing, I carried him in the next empty room.

I lay him down in the futon and he suddenly grab me.

"Sleep with me." he said it while hugging me.

I was blushing when I heard him saying those words. I was in love with him that much that I cant refuse in what he wants. I kissed him. I slept with Hideki.

The morning comes. Some members left. When I woke up Hideki left. I was disappointed. I was hoping that when I woke up I hope I can see him sleeping beside me. I just cried not knowing if its happiness for sleeping with him since for my one-sided love or a painful in my heart.

It was another day to attend school. I saw Hideki in the club. After disappointing myself I still keep on looking at him without noticing me. He saw me looking at him.

"Ah, Ruui-sempai.. Uhm about last night.." rubbing his head.
".... I-Its ok. Since we are both drunk."

I saw Hideki grip his right hand. I have no idea if he is angry or what.

"... Yeah, you're right." Hideki left.

I was speechless for a minutes and realized everything. I followed him but I dont know what I am going to say when I catch up with him.

I followed him in the rooftop. I saw him looking far away. The air blows.

"Hideki.. I.."
"What sempai?"

He wont look at me in the eyes. Instead looking at me all I can see is his back. I dont know what expression he is making right now. My chest hurt that I want to cry.

".... I-I love you Hideki!" I burst out and my tears fall.
"What was that? A joke?"

I was hurt when I heard him saying that.

"... Its disgusting, right?" my tears wont stop.

He turn around and saw me crying.

"Sempai, I love you too."

I was surprised when I heard him. When I look at him I saw his eyes that wants to cry. He make a warm smile while looking at me.

"I was just hurt. I don't sleep to a person that I don't love."

My tears fell. And went to hug him. I cried like a kid. He hug me back. Hideki keep saying that he loves me. I was happy that moment he confessed and I confessed my feelings to him. I didn't ask Hideki when he start loving me but I just keep on hugging him.

Hideki has a reason too why he loves me the way I do. The days move fast. We are about to graduate and I got a news about my parents.

I am really shocked and don't know what to do after hearing that news. I can't complain everything. I came to find Hideki and plan to talk to him about it as soon as possible.

The place, we both confess our feelings, where I saw Hideki is in the rooftop. I never thought he was waiting for me. I saw his happy smile when he saw me.

"Ruui-sempai." he mention my name in a warm smile.
"... Hideki."

He was clueless. I just grip my both hand and I don't know how to start explain everything to Hideki.

"... Actually... I have something to tell you."
"What is it, sempai?" He keep on smiling at me.
"... I will go study abroad."

Gripping my hand and do my best not to cry. I can't look in his eyes.

"What was that?" he whisper.

I look at him and saw his angry face. And he keep on asking me that same question he asked.

".. Its about my parents. They want me to study abroad. And look the course I want to get is there too so.." I smile like an idiot.

Hideki turn around and look far away and I don't know what he is thinking right now and what expression he is making right now.

"... Is that so? That would be good. Taking your course you like.. Go ahead.."

My chest hurts when he said that to me. I was hoping to stop me but I disappointed to him. I thank him and leave. I don't know what face he is making that time when I turn around. But me, I cant stop my tears flowing in my eyes.

Its been a years. I am graduated in my university already. I received an invitation from my previous high school teacher that we will have a reunion party. When I read it, I suddenly remember Hideki. I thought that if I will go there I can see him.

I don't have any reason to came back in my hometown, its just an invitation that I received from the school and of course its because of Hideki. I decided to go back in states soon once the party is done.

I attend the reunion party in a hotel. Everyone from the club I am before saw me. Hideki is with a girl that I don't know and when I look at him he saw me yet he snob me. My chest hurt. I thought that he really don't care at me at all since before. Someone called me from the previous club members. Hideki took a glimpse at me and when I'm about to look at him he removed his sight from me. He still talking to the girl he is with.

"Ruui, isn't you and Hideki closed before?" someone from the club member before asked me.
"... Not really, I guess.." I whisper.

They look at me and my sempai pat me.

"Don't make a sad face like that. Just enjoy the party."

I just make a fake smile so that they wont become curious about me.

I went to the toilet. I saw Hideki was in front of the mirror, washing his face. I act like I don't know him.

".... You changed a lot." Hideki whisper.

I suddenly stop.

"I guess I am.. Please excuse me."

I left him. I didn't noticed that my tears fall down. When Hideki followed me he grab my hand and saw me crying.

"... Ruui-sempai..."

I moved backward when I heard he mention my name. I don't know what to say but run away in front of him. He followed me calling my name many times until he catch up with me and grab my right hand. Hideki hug me tight. I was speechless when he hug me but my tears wont stop.

"... Please.. Don't leave me the way you did back then."

I feel a warm tears from my neck. Hideki is crying while hugging me tight. I hold his hands.

"... Please, Ruui-sempai don't leave me."
"... Why didn't you stop me back then?"
"Because I cant stop you because you can do the things you want to do while me I still don't have dream future back then. I'm still immature that time and don't have guts to stop you.. I regret it."

I just keep on crying while hearing all those explanation from him. I face hima nd hold his face and kissed him.

"I'm sorry.. Hideki."

I apologized to him while resting my head in his chest. He hug me again.

"I love you, Ruui-san"

Hearing calling my name without sempai really makes me happy. My tears keep on falling because of the happiness I feel.

"I love you too, Hideki."

END